This website and its pages are a collection of thoughts, ideas, values, practices, and feelings, and documents the messy, endless process of defining and redefining the lines and boundaries that distinguish each of these things. To put it simply: This is a site dedicated to exploring life. The contents range from blog posts and tarot readings to techical writings and selfhosting projects, although it's not limited to these things.
There's an endless number of reasons as to why people write, and they all carry just as much meaning as any other reason. These are my reasons.
In our modern day and age, everything moves impossibly fast. Must-play video games, groundbreaking TV shows, and life-changing movies are coming out at faster rates with each year that passes; major historical events are happening daily; that new social media trend is already out of the mainstream by the time it reaches your ears. I can't keep up, so I choose not to. I deleted my social media. I got off of most streaming services. And through this website, I'm forced to slow down and appreciate not just material things, but also life experiences. Through taking the time to write about my experiences, I sanctify them, treating each one with the respect it deserves.
I live my life as an absurdist. In the grand scheme of things, nothing really matters; I don't feel that one can confidently dismiss any one creation theory simply because it's impossible to know for sure with our limited knowledge. The birth of humanity being brought about by an intelligent Creator is just as likely as the universe exploding into existence. Yet without knowing how we were created, and regardless of we ever find the "true" answer, life continues on, with or without meaning.
This thought is both terrifying and empowering, because it means that we as people define what does or doesn't matter, both individually and collectively. We get to decide, through our thoughts and actions, what is important to us.
We carry a lot of thoughts in our head, all day, every day. Your brain is always processing, consciously or subconsiously. Like a dream, we may have a vivid, intense thought or idea that could drastically alter the way we view the world or others, or we could come up with the perfect business idea, or we could finally figure out how to fix that problem that's been gnawing away at us, only for it to get swept away by a phone call or a text message, and the thought becomes lost to time. Imagine how much simpler our life would be if we could hold onto those thoughts? For me, writing is the solution. Whether on paper or on your computer, documenting these thoughts gets them out of my head so that I can focus on what's happening around me and come back to those thoughts when I have the time and enery to process them.
I often find myself looking back and feeling like I've made no progress, even though I know that's not the case. This website serves as a reminder that, whether or not you noticed, people are always growing; myself included. Understanding how and where you're growing is incredibly valuable, because it also shows where you may need to put more effort in to get the results you want.
I've found that I'm at my best when I have something that I pour my time and effort into. Although I love writing, it still takes work; I still have to take time to sit down and put thought into what I want to write next. This website is a way for me to fall in love with the flow of work. Each page I add to this website gets me more excited for the next page that I'm going to put up or the next project I'm going to start writing notes for, and that energy flows into everything else in my life. When Eve ate the apple, it was etched into our blood to labor endlessly. We must take God's curse on mankind and learn to love it.
If given the choice, I would do this 24/7, all day, every day, endlessly until the end of time. But since I can't do that, I try to write at least 15-30 minutes a day. I try to write whether I'm having a good day or a bad day, when I'm stressed or carefree. In an ideal world, I'd write every morning before I start my day to help ground myself and consistently get my thoughts out.
Outside of a set schedule, I try to follow these basic rules as indicators of when I should start writing.
My reason for writing comes from a desire to understand myself, others, and the world that we live in, so I find myself gravitating towards these subjects.
In any way possible! I primarily type things out on my computer or record a voice note; I want to write creatively, technically, liberally; write in prose, write essays, write song lyrics.
I wrote this out because I very often fall out of good habits. I need to know why I'm doing something so that, even when it's tough to do, I can remember why I started doing it in the first place. Just as this helps build my resolve, I hope that it gives you some inspiration as well.